What the--?? I missed Motivational Monday?

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It is apparent that amongst the excitement of Ghettotainment, I forgot about Motivational Monday. Partially I guess, because I was slightly motivated yesterday. I got up nice and early, got dressed up all pretty and drove down to Trumbull in the middle of a monsoon to go to a job fair.

I had preregistered online two weeks prior and still had to stand in this HUGE ASS line when I got there. I was able to head in for a seminar I wanted to go to in which I got to call out the guy from the DOL when he started selling the fact that there are WIA(workforce investment act) dollars available to the unemployed for reskilling. I promptly raised my hand after his schpeel about it during the Q&A and quite proudly called him out on it. The truth about the WIA money is that, if you got laid off in late '08 or very early '09, you might have a chance at money...but if you didn't get laid off and get your dislocated worker certification early enough, you got screwed - like I did.

*cue the tangent from my original point*

A slight rant and then venting about the 2ww!

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I realized something today while driving that I think should be addressed. Why do some traffic lights have green arrows for the turn if the arrow is only going to be green for litterally 5 seconds. Seriously. Pointless.
It takes me about 10 seconds to react to the green, start pressing on the gas to get going, because..let's face it, not everyone guns it when the light turns green.

As I'm sitting at this intersection in Danbury on South Street by the Dunkin Donuts (yes I give directions in relations to Dunks...and bars...so I guess I'm a caffinated drunk...lol) and the light turns green with the green arrow for the left hand turn and quite seriously it turned yellow after 5 seconds. The first car hadn't even gotten through the turn! What the hell kind of planning is that? Utter bullshit. City of Danbury needs better traffic light planners....maybe that's a job I can have! HA!

Now on to the 2ww(read: the most excruciating and axious two weeks of my life)

I need to put an APB out on my motivation....

Perhaps I should write it a letter to see if it answers. I seem to have absolutely no motivation lately. Unemployment can do that do ya I guess. My first few months of joblessness I was so gung ho about projects around the house, namely refinishing my cabinet doors. That was in April. It's now January. Almost a year later and my cabinet doors are nowhere near done. Actually they're just sitting on the garage floor waiting for me to work on them. It's not only the cabinets, it working out. I have a Wii Fit and the EA Active program. I wake up every day prepared to take on the day and do a little working out and then do some stuff around the house. And then I get downstairs, have my breakfast and coffee annnnnnd POOF! Motivation gone. Long gone.

Missing motivation isn't like when you cat gets out and you can't find it and you leave a bowl of cat food outside the door and it will eventually find it's way home. There's no form of coercion that can be left to temp my motivation back to me (if you happen to know of something, please let me know).

My shrink says that I have control issues...and I do. Agree with me damnit! So this unstructured life is killing me, however, somehow unstructure has some way become structure....does that make sense? It's like organized chaos.

I've decided to make Mondays "Motivation Mondays". Maybe this will give my week a little bit of structure. Yeah, I know it's only one day, but one day at a time y'know. I can't conquer the week all at once.

I'm going to start this Motivaiton Monday by writing my motivation a little letter to see if it decides to stay around for the week.

Dear Motivation, It would be nice if you could stick around for more than an hour or so. I don't smell and I'm not that bad to hang around with. I'm so much more useful when you're around! I'll even bring you flowers and make you breakfast in bed - wait, that would defeat the purpose of motivating me wouldn't it? Well, you get the idea. So, yeah, it would be awesome if you could hang around for longer next time you're here. Mmkay? Thanks! Bye!

"Hi my name is Jenn and I'm unemployed"....(all in unison) "Hi Jenn"

So I've recently joined the ranks of the unexpectedly unemployed....on my first day back to work after being on disability nonetheless. Well now I'll have soooo much time to blog =) and it will also allow me to do what I've really wanted to do for a long time....go to nursing school! So I'm 27 and on my way to my 3rd career. It's never to late to follow your heart. I still plan on writing on the side freelance style and will always have a passion for that as well, that's something I have in my soul that I can't deny.

So with the formalities aside, let me tell you how I feel like I've joined a support group. As expected, I filed for unemployment and went into the info session this past week, man did I feel like I was in a support group. I looked around at all the desolate faces and felt like standing up and saying "Hi...my name is Jenn and I'm unemployed". There should be twelve steps for this...sponsers,even. (wow..did I just channel Snagglepus or what?!)

I've been on unemployment before a few years ago, but never was it like this. There were such a mix of people in that meeting...from people like me that are still in their 20's and looking to follow their career to those that were displaced from their company after 15 or 20 years. Those are the ones I feel for the most. You've got someone in their 40's that unexpectedly looses their job, more than likely has kids in or about to go to college and paying a mortgage on a house and supporting a family. This person hasn't had to look for a job in decades and hasn't updated their resume in years let alone probably doesn't know much about searching for a job on the internet. They're missing the technological/internet skills that those of us younger folks have these days. I feel so bad for these people. It makes me want to volunteer at the unemployment office to help those in need. But then what happens to my job search? Well...eventhough I'm still searching for jobs, I'm also waiting for my funding to come through for nursing programs.

On the job search topic, I'm sure this goes without saying, but DAMN there are NO jobs out there!!! I did a search for import/export and supply chain logistics...NOTHIN! How depressing is that! One of the only places I know hiring right now is PetSmart...incredible huh? I can't wait to go back to school to keep myself busy. I've been out of work on disability for the last two months and even though I'm appreciating having the nice weather to enjoy, I can't stand sitting around the house doing nothing but searching for jobs on the internet. It's always the same crap day after day. At least I still have the radio gigs on the weekend. It's definitely time to incorporate my entertainment company and get things off the ground with my dj/karaoke gigs!!! If you readers need a DJ/KJ in the New England area, check out my website at www.jenniferkopec.com and click on Starshine Entertainment.

On that note, it's almost time to watch my 7pm episode of Scrubs and head off to Putnam House karaoke =) Stay tuned for more!~